i haven't updated in what seems like ages, mostly because i don't really want people to know what's been going on in my personal life, which kind of defeats the purpose of this blog.
anyway, a major event has happened in my life!!...i've FINALLY (unofficially) FINISHED SCHOOL! the sense of newfound freedom isn't as sweet as i hoped it would be, though. i find myself itching to do something productive whenever i lapse into my lazy mode. maybe it's the anxiety and nervousness of having to actually find a job. for once, i am truly no longer a student! i have to go out into the world and start feeding myself! it's quite a scary thing, really. trying not to scare myself here, but...omg, it's SCARY.
i'm trying to be positive, and look forward to all the other career fairs coming up. it's still nerve-wracking, though. what if my portfolio isn't good enough? what if i just haven't been doing...enough? oh gosh. it's so scary okay i shall stop scaring myself now and just draw everyday but now i feel like drawing everyday isn't enough, i've got to draw every second of my life until i get to the standard that i hope to reach one day. and even then i might not reach it.
here's to hoping for good things though! for now, i'll work towards my goal and be a kick-ass artist eventually.
i haven't updated in what seems like ages, mostly because i don't really want people to know what's been going on in my personal life, which kind of defeats the purpose of this blog.
anyway, a major event has happened in my life!!...i've FINALLY (unofficially) FINISHED SCHOOL! the sense of newfound freedom isn't as sweet as i hoped it would be, though. i find myself itching to do something productive whenever i lapse into my lazy mode. maybe it's the anxiety and nervousness of having to actually find a job. for once, i am truly no longer a student! i have to go out into the world and start feeding myself! it's quite a scary thing, really. trying not to scare myself here, but...omg, it's SCARY.
i'm trying to be positive, and look forward to all the other career fairs coming up. it's still nerve-wracking, though. what if my portfolio isn't good enough? what if i just haven't been doing...enough? oh gosh. it's so scary okay i shall stop scaring myself now and just draw everyday but now i feel like drawing everyday isn't enough, i've got to draw every second of my life until i get to the standard that i hope to reach one day. and even then i might not reach it.
here's to hoping for good things though! for now, i'll work towards my goal and be a kick-ass artist eventually.
