no school, no assignments to rush, no deadlines to meet. life is so good right now! (: all i need to juggle are timings to meet friends and what show/game/movie to watch next! OMGZ. SO XING FU. ((:
too bad it'll all be over in slightly over a week. im alrdy preparing to be emo on the first day of school! the monstrous pile of work that awaits. all the sleep ive gotten during the holidays will soon amount to nothing, hahahhaha. it's an endless cycle. a destructive cycle.
much has changed, although i feel like nothing much has. perhaps it's due to my terrible memory, or my unconscious habit of forgetting things i'd rather not remember, like unhappy stuff. unhappy things feel quite distant from me, and if i don't will myself to think of those memories, they wouldn't ever cross my mind and would probably eventually fade away. which is kinda bad. i need to remember things, and i need to remember how i used to feel about certain things.
hmm. no one likes unhappy moments, but i think i'm terrible in the sense that i block out unhappy moments in my mind, and when i talk to people, i don't remember that i ever bore grudges against them, or vice versa. -_- almost as if those bad times never happened. which can be quite strange for the other party.
it seems like i overthink things, but i think it may be possible that i UNDERthink, for lack of a better (and proper) word.
i need to start thinking more! and work this lazy brain of mine. haha. :/
okay. time to continue enjoying my holidays while they last!! :D
no school, no assignments to rush, no deadlines to meet. life is so good right now! (: all i need to juggle are timings to meet friends and what show/game/movie to watch next! OMGZ. SO XING FU. ((:
too bad it'll all be over in slightly over a week. im alrdy preparing to be emo on the first day of school! the monstrous pile of work that awaits. all the sleep ive gotten during the holidays will soon amount to nothing, hahahhaha. it's an endless cycle. a destructive cycle.
much has changed, although i feel like nothing much has. perhaps it's due to my terrible memory, or my unconscious habit of forgetting things i'd rather not remember, like unhappy stuff. unhappy things feel quite distant from me, and if i don't will myself to think of those memories, they wouldn't ever cross my mind and would probably eventually fade away. which is kinda bad. i need to remember things, and i need to remember how i used to feel about certain things.
hmm. no one likes unhappy moments, but i think i'm terrible in the sense that i block out unhappy moments in my mind, and when i talk to people, i don't remember that i ever bore grudges against them, or vice versa. -_- almost as if those bad times never happened. which can be quite strange for the other party.
it seems like i overthink things, but i think it may be possible that i UNDERthink, for lack of a better (and proper) word.
i need to start thinking more! and work this lazy brain of mine. haha. :/
okay. time to continue enjoying my holidays while they last!! :D
