at this age, i realise that i can still be quite childish about friendships. that needs to change :/ also, i need to be more independent.
i can't believe im going to be 20 in a month or so. GOSHHHHH. i still look like im 15, still dress like im 15, and still act like im 15. i feel so inadequate, ughhh.
..i need a new wardrobe.
anw, i went to NTU today with renee and kunyu. i suddenly feel very keen to join NTU, haha! but it's so tough to get in x__x again, i feel inadequate. my stuff isn't good enough to compete with all the pros from the various polys ): i rlyrlyrly hope to get in now, but..im trying to think of backup plans in case i don't get into NTU, and im so stuck. absolutely devoid of confidence. doomed to fail in every aspect of my life. idk what i'd be good at, actually. im average at everything, not exceptional at anything.
..okay i shall end this blog post on an awkward note, lol. ive suddenly run out of stuff to rant.
at this age, i realise that i can still be quite childish about friendships. that needs to change :/ also, i need to be more independent.
i can't believe im going to be 20 in a month or so. GOSHHHHH. i still look like im 15, still dress like im 15, and still act like im 15. i feel so inadequate, ughhh.
..i need a new wardrobe.
anw, i went to NTU today with renee and kunyu. i suddenly feel very keen to join NTU, haha! but it's so tough to get in x__x again, i feel inadequate. my stuff isn't good enough to compete with all the pros from the various polys ): i rlyrlyrly hope to get in now, but..im trying to think of backup plans in case i don't get into NTU, and im so stuck. absolutely devoid of confidence. doomed to fail in every aspect of my life. idk what i'd be good at, actually. im average at everything, not exceptional at anything.
..okay i shall end this blog post on an awkward note, lol. ive suddenly run out of stuff to rant.
